It’s like all the things are messed up together.

I have no idea about how to deal with it.

Final exams, sb, headache or maybe fever.

God damn it.

Sometimes people try to make me believe that

Things will get better if I have confidence and enough patience.

That is shit.

i used to think that I’m strong enough to handle all kinds of difficulties.

But now i finally find my position, I'm so weak, and god damn stupid.

Do I look like that innocent and should be treated like a fool?!

Sure, I do.

so what?

Do I deserve this?

Now I’m trying to tell myself again and again

Be optimistic.

Girl should not cry for not being loved.

That’s the way I   learn to get it through.

I know I’m a freak

However, who cares.

I feel kind of depressed, tired, and lost my way.

It is said that “tears can help nothing."

But why can’t I stop it?

Life brings people catastrophe so that people can learn to be strong.

For me, that is growing up.

No pain, no gain.

Thank you, life.

p.s please ignore the grammar mistakes, you know, i feel a little bit awkward.

anyway, thank you , Eason.